I've thought about you throughout the day, even more when my colleague announced that she's getting married. I guess I feel out of touch with that reality, and sometimes it seems like there's nothing I do will ever get me there.

Why do I feel such a strong urge to want to be with you? Yet when I think back to all the times you've made me sad, the calls you didn't take, the heart break you made me go through, I thought to myself that no man should make his beloved go through what I did.

You're right, I deserve better, and as much as it hurts me to tell you this, but I feel I now want to let you go, because you never made me felt like you were with me. And you were right to let me go, you were right to protect your heart too, and I was too blind and eager to see that inside it all, you were hurt badly, and the worst part is, you haven't even realised it.

I am slowly letting go of "one day", "one day" you'll come back to me, "one day" you will see me for the person who was meant to be with you. I have decided that "one day" will have to settle itself in the future, and I want to find the love I deserve, a man who will grab onto a woman and never let her go.